Trip to Edmonton

I went out with Alouise today.  It was a lot of fun.  I really like hanging out with Al.  She's so much fun to hang out with.  We went to this amazing place called Duchess.  It's this Patersie in Edmonton that sells such delicious food it should be considered illegal in several countries!!
Have a story idea about a cursed guy who has a demon attatched to him and he meets the girl of his dreams.   I guess?  Eh, might work...of course could be sued for libel.  Wheeeee.....

Curious Crap

Stuff I would love to write about:

- Theresia Carbarrus Tallien:  She was kind of like the Oskar Schindler of her time when it came to smuggling people out of France.   She would help her aristocratic peers escape the insanity of the Terror.  She sounds like an interesting character.  When the Terror was over, she was all about having fun and partying!!  She slept around a lot sure...but she was rich, so..you know during that time (even now probably) it didn't count.


- Something Paranormal:  Just would be on a blog.  I want to write about a visit to Scotland and the Greyfriars graveyard.

Too Be Continued...

Catch Up

I've had a cold and I've felt like crap the entire time.  I just started feeling better today, though I've been feeling a bit better today.  I managed to finish the second chapter of my story.  I have to tape it together for Florence and then, editing.  God I'm tired.

A Bit of Bitterness

I've had better days.  I felt like crying all day long, the car just stops in an intersection (thank God not main street) and some one on facebook decides to lecture me on Islamic law in Saudi Arabia.
Look, if your not a woman from Saudi Arabia and have actually lived the life, DON'T LECTURE ME ON WHAT I SHOULD AND SHOULD NOT THINK ABOUT CERTAIN ISSUES!!!!
Every one else seems to be able to open there mouth and say what ever fucking crap they want to stay and as soon as I stand up and say something I'm autmomatically shut down and the worst part?  I have no rational arguement that would sound like an intellegent and educated way to tell this person to shut the fuck up.  I'm so mad right now.
I guess I shouldn't be mad at this person but she asks for people to be understanding during this time of difficulty which is fine (I don't know her very well but I've met her through other people and she was nice).  But I really don't want other people's opinions on any posts I do when they're political.  Really, I'm not that political to begin with but I guess it's just an accumliation of things that have been piling up over the past few days.
I was depressed all day today.  I felt miserable.  Mom wouldn't drop some slip up about dad taking time off (after just saying that she didn't want to go to Sask.) why should we have to be put through the same misery?  You know what? DON'T GO TO SASK IF YOU DON'T WANT TO!!!!!!!!!!!  She has adult children.  Let THEM look after her!  If she's driving you crazy, DON'T TALK TO HER!!!!!  Stop driving US crazy and sharing her paranoid thoughts.  I am so sick and tired of having to feel bad for some one who tried to manipulate my mother!  I am sick of being a nice person all the time!  For once I would like to be a complete bitch and just tell every one to fuck off and LEAVE ME ALONE!  
Of course, I am seriously hoping tomorrow I will return to my cheerful self and be nice again but I'm still pissed off about the whole being lectured.  I'm Canadian, I have been taught from the time I could speak not to offend anyone.  I KNOW that these people have been raised that way and whatever.  I am AWARE that their culture is different from ours, but you know what?  Almost 90% of the world has women working along side men, even most parts of Africa (even Islamic African countries) don't have this kind of anti-feminist views!  What makes them so different?

ARRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH

Silly Me

I wrote a stupid post on facebook that I probably should have written here.  Eh...whatever.  I'm taking a break from my normal crap tonight.  I'm not gonna phone anyone, write and I'm going to bed early.  Last night was fucking torture, with the tossing and turning and getting up, then going back to bed just to do the same thing over again.  The ability to function properly has stopped for tonight anyway.  I wanted to try to finish all what I had to tonight but I'm so tired that's not happening either. 
I'm just gonna take my nitol and hope that the Muses and my Roses will visit me again while I sleep.

Slight depression

Well, the flow of creativity stopped today.  Fuck. 
I had just a few more things to write and I was struggling with what I had to begin with!  I think the the problems were:

a) I was forcing it.  Sometimes I won't have a thing going on in my head and write anyway in hopes that if I pull it out of my ass that it'll just flow.  Sometimes it works and other times, obviously, it doesn't.  What I wrote today kind of sucks (not kind of, it did!).  So anyway, I'm hoping every one in the creative department enjoyed their day off is back to work tomorrow!

b) My mom is leaving to visit her sister for a few days.  To be quite honest, I don't want her to go.  Not only because I'll miss her but also because she doesn't really want to go which has made her seriously grumpy and hard to live with.  She always gets this way before any kind of trip, she frets, she worries and the rest of us just do our best to get out of her way.  It's quite possible that the reason creativity was on the low side was because of the atmosphere of the house or possibly the change in routine.  She just makes me nervous and when I'm nervous it's hard to concentrate because she's going all over the house, having a mini melt down.

All I want is a little quiet and inspiration.  Just a little?  I mean, I'm not complaining.  My Muses, Roses and what ever other world helpers have been outstanding, I've been guided by some wonderful people, seen and unseen.  I just want to get this done so that way we can move on to other things.  Please?  PLEASE???

A Note of Thanks

A great big thank you to my muses and Roses for helping inspire me for the last two days.  If they can hold  on for another day, we're almost done Chapter 2!  Thank you, thank you!!!!!!

M.

Another Day, Another Post

I'm not sure what is I should write about tonight.  There really isn't much to talk about.  I'm writing what is hopefully the final part of the second chapter I have spent the last seventeen months working on.  Seventeen months.  I mean, wow!  I hope it doesn't take another seventeen months to write the next chapter because then it's going to take a hell of a long time to write this thing.  I might be dead before it gets published! 
I guess I'm just frustrated.  I know that what I've been working on is worth it.  For some reason writing those individual scenes was easier to write than this whole chapter is!  I suppose it's because I have a lot of stuff to go through, so much material to chose from, I didn't know where to start! 
I'm not a patient person either so that probably doesn't help.  Anyway, I am determined to send in a first draft to Florence by the end of the weekend/Monday.  That is a promise!  Wow, I guess I had something to talk about after all!  Frustration breeds creation?  God I hope so!
Come on my muses!  Please help me!
My dearest Roses please help me!  Please?  I need inspiration for this last stretch....please?

P.S.  Thank you muses and Roses for the help tonight :).  Really appreciate it!!!  Please keep it up so I can finish this scene for tomorrow?  THANK YOU

Another pointless entery

I just felt the need to post again.  About what I'm not sure.  I just felt the need to post something.  Maybe because today is the day I actually had to write.  I managed to write about two pages worth of content.  I should have written/cut and pasted more but some one else was on the computer that has access to a printer.  I think about getting a printer for this heavy piece of bits and pieces of a computer. 
What I dream of having one day is something that weighs the size of three year old.    It depresses me but it's either buy a new lap top or a trip to Paris.  Guess which one wins? 
There's really nothing to talk about really.  I tried to write about Alestier Crawley but that just gave me shudders and I felt more than a little nervous for some reason and had to stop writing about him.  Even typing about him is giving me the willies.  I don't know why.   Maybe I'm being ridiculous but eh...better safe than sorry.  I believe in life after death and sometimes souls who weren't that great in life are just as dangerous in death. 
I do believe in spiritualism and a lot of the old pagan Goddess and you have to be super careful with how you do things.  Just ol' Aleister was very very creepy

Shame on Me

Apologies for not writing yesterday.  I was on a role yesterday with the writing, or rather the cut and pasting.  I didn't call my boyfriend either.  Shame on me!  Today I hit a wall again.  I had what I wanted in my head but couldn't really get it on a paper, so I finally just typed out what I needed and just cut it out and pasted it on paper.  Sooo...yeah!  That is my achievement for the day.  Tomorrow is kind of the third part of chapter two, the trip home, the market and the arrest.    This could be interesting...*sigh*.  I'll probably end up writing it manually and my hand will feel like it's about to drop off but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.  Huzzah!

*Sigh* Home

Went to the doctor's for annual check up.  Apparently I'm fine.  Rocking steady.  My PFTs were the same as last time, which is good.  The tech said that it was even a smidge better, so that was encouraging.   I was a bit freaked out because it felt to me like my breathing had changed, but it turns out it was just me being a freak and paying to close attention to stuff.  Just glad to be home

Writing is going very slowly.  It feels like it's taking forever to get my crap together for this one!  Incredibly frustrating as it was flowing like...well...like a flow-y type thing that flows and now it seems to have hit a block.  I think it's probably that, once again, I'm over thinking things and just need to sit down and focus on what I'm doing.  Still frustrating though.

Mom and Dad might be going to the lake tomorrow with some of their friends.  That would be totally super as I would get the house to myself and bask in the sweet silence.  I'd still have Dita with me but that's ok.  She's nice company, and she's such a cuddle bear.  I love this little piece of fluff.  Right now she's taking a nap on my lap and it's just pure bliss right now. 
I would love to take a nap but I don't wanna move either.  I just might cave and do it anyway.

Cheers

Hi!

Welcome all you shiny happy people out there in Internet land!  This is the first entry on the road to the goal of 100 entries by December 31, 2012.  I decided on this number because it's a nice round number and something I can pull off. 
Now, I'm going to warn every one straight off that most of these entries will be completely pointless.  What?  You say most of these entries are pointless anyway?  Well, guess what?  The ones I consider pointless are probably going to be even more pointless than the ones I consider to have a point!  Got that?  Good.  Now lets move on.
Since I haven't really introduced myself in any of the previous entries I've put up, I'll toss in a brief summary in this one.
I'm 33 years, seven months and four days of this posting.  I'm an Aquarius and proudly posses most of the qualities that make an Aquarius an Aquarius.  I can't think of a lot of them at the moment, except to say that I'm kind of weird, somewhat antisocial (this isn't a quality of an Aquarius, that's just me.), and believe in a lot of humanitarian causes though I don't have the money to support any.  Basically I believe that as long as people aren't breaking the law, or hurting anyone emotionally then you should do whatever you feel is right for you. 
I have a really broad imagination and have had one since I was a little kid.  I used to work at the local library but I don't anymore for a myriad of reasons.  One of the major being that my health is border line bad and I'm in a long distance relationship.  I decided last year that I would keep myself as healthy as possible and pursue what I wanted before I was too sick to do anything about it.  So I have more freedom to spend with my awesome boyfriend, whom I adore and maybe take a trip or two to Europe. 
To keep myself busy I'm in the process of writing a novel.  Yes, this is probably every reader's dream to write a novel but again, I decided to take this opportunity to do it now instead of waiting until I'm so sick that I won't have the energy to do it.  I've been working on it for a year and a half now and I haven't even been able to finish Chapter 2.  Chapter 1 is a far away dream right now but I'm hoping all this work will pay off.  Sadly, it seems when I put so much work and effort into something it never seems to get the same reward and recognition of something I've just pulled hastily out of my ass.  Sometimes I think it'll get published no problem but then other times I think it'll probably won't or it'll take forever to get published, again I would love to see something I wrote on a shelf in a book store before I die.  That would be so frickin' awesome and maybe, just maybe my family and friends will be kind of proud of me.  For that anyway.
My other love, is my little dog Dita.  An adorable Chihuahua who loves to be cuddled and barks at people who come into the house.  She doesn't bite, she just barks to tell them to "Stay the hell away from me!"
So that's the first entery.  Please expect entery two on Friday August 3, 2012.

Cheers